Fearless

Last night I watched the movie Fearless. It was directed by Peter Weir. Jeff Bridges, Isabella Rossellini, and Rosie Perez starred in the film. It was deep, spiritual, moving, personal, and just absolutely wonderful. The story centers around the lives of  two survivors of a plane crash. Before the crash, Max Klein was afraid to fly. After the crash,  he claims to have no more fear.  

Ironically (for me anyway) the film came out in the same year that I had a powerful experience that gave me a taste of fearlessness myself. For three days I lived without fear of anything or anyone (at least as far as I remember).

If you have been paying attention to this blog, you’ll notice that I am really big on releasing fears with the goal of fearlessness. Here, I’d like to self-dislose what’s been going on with me lately to give you an idea of how deep our fears really do run.

In 1993 I experienced what I believe to be a form of  fearlessness that faded after 3 days. It 1997 I discovered a methodology for becoming fearless on a 24-7-365.25 basis that I have been practicing ever since that time with absolute fearlessness as part of my goal. Lately I have made a lot of progress toward my goal of fearlessness to the point where most fears that come up for me can be cleared very easily and effortlessly. Some need a bit more time and attention to release.

Despite all of the time, attention and energy I have put into the realization of my goal, I still have deep-seated fears that require healing and release. Fearless revealed another to me last night. Toward the end of the movie, another survivor says to Max Klein something like, “You can’t save everyone, Max.” In hearing those words, I realized that I was continuing to suffer from a fear that I had not yet completely released.

In that moment I saw myself more clearly. In that statement, I recognized that I had been feeling a kind of pressure to save everybody. This is a fear that for me is related to a few different things.

All of my life I have been afraid that I was not good enough, that I was not worthy of the biological real estate I had been blessed to inhabit (not unlike most or all of you reading this I’m guessing). Connected to this fear was the sense that I needed to do something of importance or significance in order to earn the right to claim my right to exist within the tiny swatch of the universe I call home. Underneath this was a lack of trust in myself, others, and God. I did not trust that God had not made a mistake in creating me. I did not trust that I was good enough because God had made me. I did not trust that just being myself and doing what I truly wanted to do was enough. No. I needed to do more. I needed to do God’s job of saving everyone. I needed to accomplish God’s job of saving the world for myself and by myself.

Thanks to Fearless, I have let go a bit more of my stranglehold on the idea that it is my job to save the world. I now have given myself a bit more permission to trust that God really does know what God is doing. Of course part of the reason I am here is to become saved and to help God with the work of saving others from the fears that hide their true magnificence. Of course I am to do the absolute best I can through my work and my being.

The difference is that when I can do these things with absolute faith and trust that God will pick up where my efforts fall short, I will be truly free and absolutely fearless. Because it does not all hinge upon me. Nothing depends solely upon me. I am a human being with the blessings that accompany existence as a created being.

I can trust God to do everything that I cannot do. I can trust God and others to do what is necessary. There’s no need to push, or force, or rush. There is now every reason to trust. My prayer right now is that each and every one of us may move more consciously into living from a place of faith, love, hope, peace, and joy. May we all do our best to support one another despite our fears until we can recognize that they are no longer necessary.

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